HIHI(:

*read this post in a bo bian tone =)

wasn't exactly in the best mood today. ok, ytd before i sleep... i told myself not to use so much bad words today&i failed. =(

i cant helped it la. ok, you're getting on my nerves. all the lies, exaggerations of things&all the criticisms you have been making abt others behind them. all the shocks you have given me (i always neeeed to search for medicines to calm myself @___@) and... all the shit (*OPPS, sorry! =P) things.

sometimes, i felt so helpess or even useless when i cant protect my dear hpys. &yet, they're always the one protecting me in one way or another and always there to help me. maybe, you all wont understand what i'm going thru because.. i only did mention this to one or two hpys. but yes, i'm always guilty of not being able to stand up for my friends.

eliza's one is one case&now another. =,= but yes, i agreee with what daniel say before.. i can only do my part and nothing more. what else could i do to help? by doing the same thing back or.. sth worst? if, its 3-4 years back, maybe.. i would.. but now, i'm sorry. i've long grown up of revenge. (this shows that i've grown up while you havent) *i'm proud to say this.

however, i felt helpless because i dont usually have the courage to speak up. =X hohoho, seee i'm honest. but yes, dont make me really pissed off. i mean, you should have seeen the usually nice me (in school, during lesson time only =P) explode. a rare scene.. (~!#$%^&*)
no matter how nice i am, no matter how bhb i can get, no matter how well i can take jokes... i've my attitude. (say till myself so nice right? but seriously, i'm far better than you) so, i'm nice. =) heehee.

(i'm stating the truth)
i guess, maybe you need to understand what others are going thru. example, what i'm going thru. (bad example, i no need you to understand) ok, another example, understand what most of us are going thru.. the pressure of O's nearing, the pressure from family members and yes, you're adding on to it. how much one would hurt and how much sadness, backstabs can one endure?

if i'm the one being attacked, i dont know how i'm gona take it. maybe, *bang my head against the wall* and swear, maybe stand up for justice... or maybe, become inferior and not talk anymore. BUT, i know.. i've hpys with me. BUT sometimes, friends cant do much too right? (like what i'm going thru) so, you seee. if friends step in to help, it will become an endless attack. BUT if they do nth and watch (again, me), they might feeel helpess. (又是我啦) all life examples stated here. THINK! if you're so kiang, you wont do all this le...

i'm serious with this post, but i neeed to add my own OS. lol..
ok, i got scolded today by both my parents&i'm hurt with what my mother say. ty eliza. =) i'm ok le, i mean i dont think my mother mean it right! =P

i revised physics with JH during MT lesson and he teach me alot of new things which we later on did in physics stars! :D&i kinda like physics now.. abit la, cause mr lim teach not bad, he's generous with his praises& i love to be praised! :P
but chemistry is a nono although i still love chem. =,= i dont understand what the ____ cher talking abt. =,= i'm bringing my ten years series tomorrow for reference. xP

got to amend some parts for F&N and cher said my TA&research were good. (see, i put in effort alright!) (>.<) alright, but actually i think its badly done but well, whats done is done. =D maybe i'm going out with eliza, hui, vonne this saturday to do constructive work-provided my parents allow! =D

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